Yeah I’m slipping into binge mentality arrrrrghhhhh.
I made the foolish mistake of buying some G&B chocolate, chocolate buscuit, snowballs and cheesepuffs for a change…. and they are all gone already, I only bought them yesterday. The puffs and snowballs were suppose to be treats for the little one and the G&B chocoalte was suppose to be for muffins that I wanted to have a go at….. and the buscuits were a treat for myself - 1or 2 with a cuppa on a night once the little man is in bed…....
And instead I scoffed most of the cheese puffs last night and half the busscuits and one of the bars of chocolate. The snow balls went yesterday luunch time - tl’u got 2 I ate the rest.
And today I’ve eaten buscuits for breakfast, white chocolate G&B, finished off the buscuits, made a cheese, tom and mushroom pizza for lunch to share with the little one and just made myself another for myself…..... and despites feeling rather sick and very full (been such a long time since I binged, so no where near the amount I would “normally” eat in binge mode) I’m itching to start on the fresh bread (baked this morning) that’s sat in the kitchen. Or fail that, despite the atrocious weather go to the garage and buy more chocolate, crisps and cake…. (I want junk food when I’m in this mood not my own cooked stuff)
I hate it when I get like this; it feels like my whole body is itchy and restless and the feeling of wanting to just eat and eat and eat drives me potty. And what’s set me off this time….... the rain…....I had planned to go to baby rythm this morning and then onto Kids Planet but its cold and raining hard and so I’m home feeling restless and as usual for me, that’s translating into chest tightening, jittery, ear buzzing urge to scoff…...